True Name

When I wrote this I imagined it entirely as something performed live. The idea of recording that was a bit unsettling so I wrote it out to capture the cadence as best I could.

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I thought I knew her name.

Eden. E D E N

Four simple letters said in a single breath.

I though I knew her name.

I didn't.

Her name

was a guttural, primal scream and a sobbing choking cough that went on for an hour.

I know that was her name, her true name, because when she was gone for good it was the name I cried out into the void to bring her back.

It's the name I pulled up from the roots of me

The one I used to bind her here again.

On the cold hard ground with me.

On top here

with me.

I'd heard it said that the way to summon a demon was to call its name, its true name.

Maybe that's true.

I can say it doesn't work on their opposites at all.

In the end it was the last part of her I lost. Uttered once

And gone from the world forever.

A burnt offering.

Just smoke